October 31st, 2008
He was fucking me so hard, I began to cry. He pulled out and stopped for a moment, brushed the tears from my eyes and let them drop onto his dick, before ramming it back into my sore fuckhole and pumping me even harder.
November 28th, 2007
The other day, I got to thinking about this straight guy I had met years ago, when I lived in San Francisco and something he said to me that totally astonished me.
Now I have to tell you a little about this guy before I reveal the secret. I saw him a lot because we both hung out at a certain coffee house and occasionally the industrial bar across the street from it. He was a very attractive man. He had long hair, a lean body, multiple ear piercings, one full sleeve tattoo on his right arm and then several tattoos on his left leg (it wasn’t uncommon for him to be in shorts and a wifebeater). He had a noticeable bulge in his pants, and when I had once ventured to ask how big, he said it was a little over eight inches and with a lot of girth. He also liked to play around with different kinds of facial hair. Sometimes he had a goatee, sometimes a chinstrap, sometimes a full beard, sometimes clean shaven. And his hair was always different too, sometimes in a ponytail, sometimes braided, sometimes hanging loose and sometimes he did that thing where you take the bangs and pull them back and tie them behind the rest of the mane.
He was very flirty and fun-loving. Never had any problems getting laid. And he always seemed like he had this high, respectful regard for women even as he chased them.
So I had been having a conversation with him that started with me asking how he felt about gay men flirting with him and he said he didn’t mind and took it as a compliment, and the conversation continued in the direction of sex. And that’s when he dropped this confession on me:
“I love fucking stupid women,” he said and he said it in a trashy whisper with this evil grin on his face. I couldn’t believe I’d just heard that.
So I asked him a little more, like what was it he liked about it and all that. He said he just sort of felt that he couldn’t respect stupid women that much and didn’t feel like he needed to pay any attention to their needs in bed, so he could really fuck the shit out of them and it made him feel all dirty and wrong and he loved that feeling.
“You like being all rough and nasty,” I said and he said, “Yeeeeeeaaaaaahh!”
But he wasn’t into the more formal dance, where you look for girls who are really into that and you have that SM negotiation thing…what are you into? what are your limits? He liked finding stupid chicks and…basically smooth talking them into bed, then using them, and then smooth talking them into feeling like it wasn’t that bad after all.
“The best is if I can tell her she’s really smart and have her really think that while I’m coming on to her, then when I’m fucking her, I call her a dumb whore, and then later I tell her I didn’t really mean it, that it was just me being all excited and nasty,” he said. He was visibly smirking as he explained it to me.
“But that’s pretty close to rape,” I said, “I mean, you’re not being honest and you are just sort of…”
“Banging on them like meat?”
He said he was careful not to take it that far. It was actually a turnoff for him to have a woman seriously frightened or fighting back. But he said most dumb chicks didn’t have enough self esteem to tell him to stop, so they’d just let him fuck them like that, and that was fine by him. And a few would tell him to slow down and so he would for a while, and then start pounding again. Apparently, a few girls had actually pushed him off of them and called him an asshole and left. He always thought that was really funny, even though he feigned concern.
“That’s fucking awesome, watching some stupid chick getting all huffy and trying to put her clothes back on as fast as possible and calling me names and then storming out. The dumb ones can't really think of anything creative to say. They just call me a dick and an asshole and a dick and an asshole and how I need to learn how to treat a woman, that sort of thing. It's hilarious. But I always say I’m really sorry and stuff so she thinks I’m just a clod who didn’t know any better. I don’t mean it though and I like to jack off thinking of how pissed off she is after she leaves. I did get one girl to calm down and let me fuck her some more and she told me to hurry up and cum so I shot it all over her face. That REALLY pissed her off.”
“OMG! You really are nasty!” I said, laughing.
“I can’t help it. I love it. Like, it’s something a dude isn’t supposed to do, so that makes it very satisfying. And people think I’m a real sweetheart and all that. It’s really easy to pick up women, and the stupid ones are pretty obvious from the get-go. So I get to be a total jerk and use them like whores. And the thing that’s really cool is that it isn’t some role play thing either.”
I asked him if he got to fuck them in the ass or throat and he said sometimes but not that often. Those were girls who tended to like it rough anyway. And he liked those too. He liked when he could fuck a stupid woman and be rude to her and give her orgasm, but her orgasm wasn’t that important. Obviously, if he thought it was funny to see her run out all pissed off, then he didn’t really care if she came or not.
Every now and then I think of that guy, especially when I see someone like him and I wish I could see him in action, watch him slime up to her, talk a bunch of bullshit, take her home and call her a stupid bitch while fucking her brains out, and then bullshitting some more about how smart and special she was before kicking her out.
And, me being submissive, I often wish I could have been one of those stupid women getting nailed by him.
September 7th, 2007
Below is a letter which I encourage everyone, queer or not, to mail/forward to the appropriate people...this is an outrage.
If you think this doesn't apply to you, you're mistaken. It's only one more step in the registration. Yes, it may be being made under the guise of protection, but that will not be the end result.
Re: Section 2257 Docket No. CRM 104
To the U.S. Department of Justice:
I am writing to object to the proposed “Section 2257” regulations.
These regulations are complicated and burdensome on legitimate businesses, and have very little to do with protecting children and minors from pornography. Their reach — particularly into adult social-networking internet services — is overbroad, unnecessary, and would allow the federal government to search and seize personal records of adult consumers without a warrant; a clear violation privacy and constitutional rights.
Specifically, I object to the following provisions:
1. The regulations (18 § 2257(b)(1) and (c)) would force adult social-networking services to obtain and maintain personal information about their users, including the user's photo ID (driver’s license, passport, or military ID). (I must note that the sites already require users to affirm that they are over 18 years of age.) Many sites have tens of thousands of users and it is simply not possible for them to do this. Moreover, many people who use these sites want to maintain their privacy, for any number of reasons, including the sad fact that they might face discrimination and/or violence if others found out they were using these sites. It is still legal in 31 states to discriminate against someone who is gay or bisexual, and in 41 states if the person is transgender. The combination of the recordkeeping requirements and many users’ fears about providing such information will kill the entire industry.
All of this is overkill given that adult social networking sites were not identified as a problem in the production, distribution and downloading of child pornography in the Department of Justice’s own report on “Child Pornography on the Internet” (May 2006).
2. The regulations (18 § 2257(g) and under 28 C.F.R. § 75.5) would allow the Attorney General to conduct unannounced warrantless searches at will on the sites’ records, including reviewing and presumably seizing the personal information on site users. This is an egregious abuse of government authority, an unwarranted invasion of privacy and, in my opinion, a violation of the Fourth Amendment of the U.S. Constitution.
3. The regulations (28 C.F.R. § 75.5(4)) provide insufficient safeguards over what the government can do with the information it obtains through its searches. This, by itself, has a chilling effect on the ability of people to engage in constitutionally protected activities. As noted above, this is particularly dangerous for gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender people.
Let me be clear: I believe children need to be protected from coercion into pornography and it is important for the federal government to do all that it can to insure those protections. Sadly, many of the provisions of the proposed 2257 regulations do nothing to address child pornography, but instead are clearly aiming at destroying an industry and ending a legal and valuable way for adults to meet one another.
We have until the 10th of this month to get as many emails in, voicing our opinions on the matter, as we can.
In a society completely welcoming of our sexuality, perhaps we would not need to resort to online sites in order to meet/converse with one another, but with the prejudices and hatred present in the world still today, the online world of the internet IS one of our main outlets...be it for sexual purposes or not.
March 5th, 2006
Hey, I'm sorry but I'm taking all you guys with "regular" journals off my friends list. I like to read steamy stories too, you see, and I'm getting tired of scrolling past all these ordinary posts about ordinary lives, to get to the hot, steamy fuck stories. No offense intended and please don't take it that way.
If you're really THAT interested in my tawdry tales, just open another LJ account, and dedicate it to sex, or just be a voyeur and don't post anything. I'll add you back under that handle. This is a two way street. I contribute to your "porn digest" and you contribute to mine.
November 3rd, 2005
i am a queer male, thirtysomething, slim, toned, attractive, homoflexible queerboy, and mostly a submissive bottom. i am also hiv+. This journal is about my sex life and my sexuality. i am a raw slut. i am a whore. i mean that more in the humiliated sense than the professional sense. i like rough sex and rape scenes. i will probably be writing a lot about rape because rape fascinates me. and i will write about my many sick and wrong fantasies. i will also be writing about drugs, about disappointments, about diseases, about attitudes and drama. Because that shit DOES happen. i want a place to write what i'm really honestly all about, as a sexual creature. i chose the term "rawslut" because of the bareback fucking reference, but also, the word "raw" can imply a lot of other things, regarding what i do and enjoy and confess to. Raw can describe how you feel, how you look, how something else feels to you, how the situation has unfolded, how someone else behaved...
So here i am, whore to give you raw testament.
This journal is friends-only and NOT WORKSAFE!!
To be a friend, you merely have to ask.